Musings
on Suicide and all its untold stories ! Life cut short by a moment !! the
undying effect of Sushant Singh Rajput’s Suicide !!! Nepotism in Bollywood !!!
These thoughts are there with me for the past few days.
Sushant Singh Rajput the cute hero of Kai po che, MS Dhoni and Chhichore, the
one with the impish smile committed suicide a week ago on Sunday morning in the
middle of Corona virus pandemic and lockdown. Why does his going away create such
a big controversy and something that refuses to die down. Why has it impacted
so many of us in a way that looks like a personal loss. This year we had a few
high profile movie stars who died .. Rishi Kapoor, Irfann Khan and now Sushant
Kapoor. Rishi Kapoor died an old man after battling cancer, Irfann khan as a
middle aged man after batlling brain tumor both these deaths were sad but
understandable simply because we all have lost loved one through desease or old
age. Suicide is always the big shocker whether it happens in personal life or
public life.
Two of the earliest deaths that I remember is for a classmate
who died when we were in 8th or 9th standard due to congenital
heart disease and a cousin brother who died in a railway accident when I was 15
years old. I have a very vague memory of my classmate but I think my cousins
dead body left a very deep impact in my mind probably because that was my first
experience of a dead body. Once I came back from crematorium, my own body felt
very different, in a way distant and different from my own self if was a deep
profound moment that lasted for a short time though. But even then I never had
an experience of Suicide which was personally felt.
So the first time, the thought of doing it came in my head
it was scary. Over 10 years ago, I was going through a particularly difficult
period in my life where all my personal beliefs were shattered. I felt I was
alone and that whatever path I choose will lead to further unhappiness and
chaos for me. It feels like you are stuck in a situation which has no escape
and the only escape seems like killing yourself however dishonourable it might
sound. However, since I didn’t take that path it is most likely my despair was
most likely not as great or my mind was still able to talk me out of it. I have
not shared it with anyone till now and this medium gives me a great anonymity
to share it. But even now I cannot share the full details because it is very
embarrassing and will affect people who are still in my life. But most of all,
we fear telling some dark secrets we tell no one because we fear what will
unravel once you start, how the process of sharing that dark secret will change
who you are. Its like jumping into an abyss very similar to the abyss that you
came out of when you were contemplating suicide. Its like the gate of a nether
world that you know exists but you don’t want to go because after you pass
through it, nothing that you have in this world will remain the same.
Sushant’s was a household name due to mostly Pavitra Rishta
aTV soap, MS dhoni a biopic and Chhicchore a movie on Suicide ( irony). But he
was not the most popular movie star or the most handsome. But there is
something about his story that connects with us all at different Level. I will
like to understand each layer
·
He was from Bihar which was and is a little
backward in terms of material wealth and culturally when compared with other
states – This lets the poor and disenfranchised to identify themselves with him
and adopt him as their own.
·
He was a good student and joined prestigious
college for his engineering – Studies are very important for Indians in general
and anybody who does well in studies, goes to prestigious schools and colleges
is seen in a positive light for the rest of his life. This is so true even in
corporate world that after a lifetime of service and great achievements when
you are being assessed for new job that “degree” and “institute” becomes a key
criteria for selection. Sushant was a good boy in every Indians book because of
his studies. And when you juxtapose his studies with other stars in the movie
industry then the difference becomes more stark because most of these stars
cannot pass class 12th to save their skin. I think this was also the
reason for his not able to adapt himself to fit in their crowd which in turn
forever branded him as an outsider.
·
He belonged to a Middle class family with
parents insisting on his becoming engineer – this makes him relatable to a
large chunk of middle class population. It is a very middle class trait to have
ambition and go after it with nothing but hard work and talent. The fact that
he managed not once but twice over (engineering and then movies) makes him very
likeable to the middle class people of India
·
He broke the glass ceiling in an industry famous
for nepotism and politicking – This lets almost all working class people relate
to him who have faced nepotism and politicking at work place. His death also
became a torch bearer for people who were against the ruling clique in Bollywood
now. So there are powerful forces letting his suicide simmer in public memory,
just like there are powerful forces out to malign him after his death.
·
His personality was such that he seemed like a
good human, with his good look and raw talent – a likeable person committing
suicide is always a bigger news that the death of person people didn’t like too
much
·
HIS JOURNEY - I think the thing a lot of people
related most was His Journey – His journey was the stuff of dreams. We all think
we have come from middle class or poor background, we want to do well in our
studies, we want to chase our dream, we want to get rich and famous.. atleast
most of us want to do. HE did it all. He left his home for passion, he worked
hard, he achieved success and then he was cut to size by people who were
jealous of his intelligence, success and his attitude to not be browbeaten. A
lot of us have felt this in our life.. relatable? You bet. And that’s what impacts us all the most. His
story is our story
Now that he has gone, there are so many skeletons coming out
of closet. This is a homegrown trend and hence this will have much more
traction that “me too” movement which was basically copied from Hollywood and
started by US import called Tanushree Dutta. We have some people like Kangana
Ranaut who started the blame of Nepotism on Karan Johar, who has come out
openly and named people like KJO, Adi Chopra, Sajid Nadiadwala, Mahesh & Mukesh
Bhatt, Balaji Telefilm, Bhushan kumar from T series, Vidhu Vinod Chopra, Anil
Kapoor family, Akhtar Family and Salman Khan familyof boycotting Sushant and
pushing him to the brink of Suicide. There is truth in what she is saying but
very smartly she is doing it at an opportune moment for her. Sushant was
socially boycotted by this Cabal (an interesting fact about this CABAL is that
almost all of them come from around Peshawar area of Pakistan.. Is this a
coincidence?) and as a movie star Kangana was aware of this but she chose to stay
quiet and never reached out to Sushant to help him. Now that there is already a
big hue and cry by general public she has become very vocal and belligerent. We
now have many comments from other celebrity who have shared there two bits. So
on one side there is the Cabal which is all powerful and has the backing from
powerful forces including mafia ? but on other side is also a set of players
who were very scared to come out but are now showing themselves bit by bit: Vivek Oberoi, Kangana, Shekhar Kapur, Sonu
Nigam, Abhijeet Bhattacharjee, Arijit Singh, Anubhav Kashyap etc who are now
slowly coming out and naming names. The difference is Cabal team is taking
action to increase its power and dominance but the opposition team is saying
things to bring them down. The is a wrong tactic from opposition, they should
focus on building a team that can dominate and work towards controlling the
narrative. There are many fencesitters who are willing to join this team like
Prasoon Joshi, Anupam Kher, Paresh Rawal, Ronny Screwwala etc and then there
are opportunistic people who will surely join once they get momentum like Bacchhan
Family, Part of Kapoor family, Ayushman Khurrana etc.
Cabal team first tried to blame Sushant for his suicide
which is partly true. But this doesn’t work for long because Sushant paid
dearly for his weakness and hence public did not buy this for long. Then they
started a campaign to tell people to grieve in private and let Sushant move on
in peace. This also backfired because committing suicide is not normal and
nobody in his senses will believe that anybody who commits suicide does so in
peace. I think the best option for CABAL is to hold ground and keep quiet. Within
a few days the public will forget this brouhaha and move on to the new sensational
news. That’s is the time to start working diligently to undermine these voices
that have spoken out against them. Like they did to Abhijeet Bhattacharjee, one
of the best voices of 90;s , he was shunted out without anybody knowing what
happened to him. The more opposition brings out new facts and new names the
less focussed it will be on Sushant and easier it will be for Cabal to
influence public sentiment. That’s how this will unfold.
Nepotism in Bollywood has always been there, the difference
is that the people doing nepotism now are doing it together rather than individually.
The other difference is that in a regular nepotism the cabal gets together to
decide who will benefit and whom they will work with. In today’s Bollywood they
are also deciding whom they will NOT work with. But if you think Nepotism in
Bollywood is bad try going to Hyderabad and see the Telegu industry its even
worse. Nobody should have this right in any industry as to decide who can come
in their industry and who cannot. If something like this happen the government
has a duty to come in and stop the monopolies and restrictive industry practice.